Between Two Worlds, Part 1

My experience with family constellations

I was only in my early to mid 20’s when both my parents died. Even as a child, I always knew I would be young when they’d eventually die. In fact I had recurrent dreams of my mother walking up a hill away from me. I would always yell “Mommy don’t leave me!” as she looked back and waved; not sad at all. She looked at me with those eyes that said “You’ll be aight.”

This is what made me the saddest after waking up; that look on her face like she wanted to be on the other side more than she wanted to be with me. There was something more important waiting for her over the crest; two babies she had lost long before I was even imagined.

Hey. I get it now Mommy. I know how hard it is to pull away; how tightly you feel you need to hold on to the people you loved and cared for and missed so deeply.

Because that’s how hard I held on to you and Daddy after y’all were gone.

If you were able to watch my talk with Vangie, you’ll recall, I eluded to parts of my experience with the modality called family constellations.

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This Sunday, we pick up where we left off; also joined by Sesheta Weaves 🌈 . This time we dig into the details of the two constellations I experienced and the resolutions I’ve made since.

I hope you’ll join us. Free for all to watch live.